You are good at building bridges,
so what if a few burnt down?
Pick up the slats from the ashes,
use the remains to strengthen others,
build on them, make something beautiful.
Build a monument to eclipse the bridge,
let the world sit amazed
by what you’ve loosed upon them all.
You could sculpt magnificence
in the cliffside of your lifetime.
A man once told you
‘don’t settle for anything less than what you deserve’,
I know you’ve always hated
when people try and control you,
this was a demand worth listening to.
Do you remember how it felt with him?
Do you remember the magic that pulsed through you?
There are others with incantations
that are waiting to be learnt,
find them, love them as your own.
There will be nights like tonight,
there will be nights where you feel
as if your old self has crept back inside.
This is a reminder to yourself that
there is no ghost you cannot exorcise.
Sometimes you might remember
the shadows you used to call friends.
There are moments you might reach out to them,
don’t do it, fumble through your drawers,
grab your flashlight instead.
One day you will wake up and regret this poem,
think it is pointless, you were just lying,
you were deluding yourself.
This piece is proof you believed otherwise,
you can believe again.
These words are a message to yourself,
use them to remind yourself you can do this.
Remember that sometime ago
you loved yourself enough,
to save your life today.
-Alex W, (first draft).